Friday, January 7, 2011

The Big 4-0

Well, it's official, I'm now part of the over-40 crew. Wow! I've lived this long. That makes me happy and I hope to live another 40. Wow! This seems like a big number to me and it's always been one of those things I always saw on the horizon, but never really thought about it actually happening. Wow! I'm 40!

Am I grown up, yet? I don't feel it. I just feel like me and like I still have a lot of growing to do, a lot of dreams to accomplish, and more dreams to create.

Having a birthday just 2 weeks after Christmas isn't that great. I don't mean to complain about the fates in this issue. We all have birthdays. They are special and yet, not so much. People often make a big deal out of them but in my history, my birthday has shown itself to be ominous. It's often forgotten by those that are closest to me, not out of neglect or lack of love, but out of holiday and winter fatigue. Further, it falls during a time of year when sad things happen.

My brother's best friend died on my 18th birthday. I was dumped on my 26th. I was grieving the loss of my mother-in-law on my 33rd. I attended my uncle's funeral on my 35th, just days after attending my niece's. I always get more nervous than excited this time of year. Yet, each year I get a little hopeful that this birthday will be celebrated with great joy.

This year, many friends have expressed interest in celebrating but nothing has been planned. I think we're all just too tired. Once again, victims of the holiday/winter fatigue. And yet, of all the birthdays this is the one that should pass with a remarkable event. I'm turning 40 and on a Friday of all days! But, nothing.

In another way, I am very fortunate to have a birthday fall so soon after the new year. It gives me an extra week to formulate resolutions. I sort of see my birthday as my real New Year and I seldom pass New Year's Day with quite the hope and inspiration as I do when I pass January 7th. This year I am inspired to start a few new blogs. I'm trying to get Dave to work out the hosting of the others, but the one being launched today is my 365 photo project. The idea is to take daily photos of what makes my life special and unique and select one photograph each day. I'll be putting my photos on another blog here, Putting them in electronic format on a blog is much more to my style. I'm not much into scrapbooking. One of my current guilts and regrets is that I haven't done baby books for the boys.

What makes my life unique and special? You probably realize by now that most of my photos may be of the boys. They make me incredibly happy. I've been on cloud-9 since they were born. Dave also makes my life unique and special. He's a wonderful devoted husband. My cat, Tempest, also fills my heart with warm fuzzies. I'm a very blessed woman and I realize it every day. Sharing photos of these blessings will be fun. I hope you all enjoy the project as much as I know I'll enjoy doing it.


Mommy Shoes said...

Happy Birthday! I think January birthdays are pretty wonderful. Of course, mine isn't until the end of the month.

Anonymous said...

Happy Birthday!
And welcome to my decade!


When I was a child I complained bitterly that my birthday was 1 week before Christmas and my Saint's Day 1 day after Three Kings' Day... Everything weas bunched into 3 weeks and nothing the rest of the year!

Barb said...

Happy Bday! So glad you're happy!

Becky said...

I hope you don't mind me stopping by. I was blog hopping around, trying to learn more about turning 40 and stumbled across your site. As I read your post I couldn't stop thinking about a book that I recently read titled, "40+ and Fabulous: Moving Forward Fierce, Focused, and Full of Life!" by Sondra Wright. It just portrays such a positive image being 40- I can't wait- I soon will be 40 also! Congratulations!